[	Current Mood	|	whatever	]
[	Current Music	|	no one cares so fuck it	]

Well what is there for me to really talk about. Besides the fact that I got a boyfriend now. But I lost one of my good friends. I don tknow I guess you could say that im upset about it and all that non-sence but at the same time Im not. I just dont know. I want to have them back as a friend but nope as long as im dating him then they wont become my friend agian. eh fuck it..

          Tiffany you know that I never ever ment to cause you this much pain. But im sorry I would like to be happy and Kyle makes me happy. I mean I would really love to work this out with you but im sorry im gonna stay with kyle as long as i can. I dont want you and me just to throw this friendship away I mean yes your right we barly ever hang out but you know that i would love to hang out.. but im not gonna ride over just get yelled at and what not im sorry im not gonna do it.. I just dont want me and you to throw all the memories away like that one night when you had the crazy idea to take pictures in our bras in your front yard.. you must admit that was funny when your mom caught us.. but thank god we had our shirts on.. you know you wanna laugh at that.. look all im trying to say to you is that im really really sorry but i wanna be happy and i still wanna be your friend whatever it takes to have you not be mad at me then im gonna try and not to have you mad at me.. I dont know what else to say.. cause we basically got everything else covered the other night.. but i still love ya no matter what happenes between us.. im still sorry but non of that is helping so w/e i give up toodles

             So besides all of that happening between me and tiffany nothing else has really happened.. besides me and myke arnt friends anymore.. alot of other dramic stuff has happened but i dont wanna share that.. im gonna keep that shit to myself sence no one seems to care anymore.. so w/e.. just like i told to tiffany i give the fuck up with life.. im not gonna live up to everyones exspections of me.. im gonna live my life how i wanna and what makes me happy im gonna fucking do it and i dont care who i hurt along the way (besides tiffnay) i do care about her.. everyone else.. FUCK OFF!!

[	Current Mood	|	oh my im actually happy	]
[	Current Music	|	my chemical romace	]

Well nothing new has really happened to me. Me and LmM1 hung out last night she stayed the night it was a blast. So yeah.. thats all that really has happened to me.. i guess you guyz could tell by my last entire that i was pissed off.. well Im not anymore.. the bitch im still pissed as hell at but im not in a pissed off mood at all. Im actually im a damn good mood.. and no i didnt get laid its cause im going straight edge and getting my life straight.. isnt that great.. yes it is.. well thats all i have to really say besides if you want to call me call my new cell phone *1*734*716*4935* yeppers tata love you all

[	Current Mood	|	just fucking kill me now	]
[	Current Music	|	*I still care for you*	]

Yeah well I guess you have all read the lil entire about me fucking that black guy. And you know what. I still dont care that you read it. But the TRUTH! is about that whole thing is that me and him only hung out that day. and me and him did not do a thing. And no joe i am not just saying that cause you got pissed. I am going to get everything out that I have held up inside of me. And the first to start off is about me and mike. Me and mike didnt fuck. We only hung out. Me and him had a whole plan made up just to piss off someone and if no one wants to believe me on that I will have you call him and talk to him and ask him about the whole thing. So there you all go. So no jessica I did not fuck mike and no im not planing on it. You know I wouldnt fuck a nigger.And also Jessica you know im "kinda" with brad so I wouldnt go and cheat on him you know im not a fucking cheater. I would only hang out with them. So to everyone that got pissed at me for doing that then w/e go ahead and be pissed and if you dont want to believe me then w/e. I really dont care. So yeah. But anyways. I dont know if there is a space limt on how much to type I really dont think there is. But if there is then shit I know im going to run out of it by the time I get done with everything that I have to say. So to just get it all started here it goes. Well I hate school and everyone that goes to it. I hate everyone I basically talk to. I am not even joking about that. They just think its really "funny" to fucking piss me off. And you know what I just let them walk all over me with that shit to. I dont wnat to get pissed at them cause I dont like to sit at home every day and sleep. BUt its not like i dont do that anyways. I really dont see why I like to have people step all over me and let them get to my head. I really dont understand myself. I think I might have to just step away and talk a walk around and just not give a fuck about anyone or anything. so yeah. I aint even joking about that. I dont care if its fucking 0 dgress outside I will fucking wlak around for hours on end and fucking think. I dont know what to do about my life anymore. I think i just might have to go back to my counsler. I just dont know theres so much shit going on. At first my life was just going all good and I was in a good mood. But then how can just one night change it all for life. Its alot to handle all at once. I really dont know what to think. I just dont know who to turn to on this huge problem. I really dont. All the people I thought I could turn to just go and turn and be a bitch. And no i dont mean beautiful individual that causes hard ons I mean a real bitch. A huge fucking CUNT!! and you should all know that I am pissed cause I fucking hate saying and hearing Cunt so yeah. Im pissed. So anyways. I just dont know anymore. I really have nothing important for you all to see. I have alot to say but not that many people really fucking care about me so i really dont see why I should go and explan myself to all of you. but im most likly going to. But yeah im think im gonna make you all a list of whats messed up in my life

• My family
• Hmm My friends
• My "relashonship"
• School
• My brother he dosent really count as family just an extra pet
• and last but not lest
• ME!

So anyways. I really dont know what else to say.Besides a little thing  I got told about last night. Joe was planing on coming to michigan to just give me a note personally. Yes I know sad right? Well like i have been saying me and him arnt friends or anything anymore because he said he wanted me to forget everything i know about him cause that would make him happy. I really dont see how I could do that but I just thoguth to myself I'll try my hardest but it isnt going to work. So yeah. I guess I hate my life. I hate all of my fucking friends so I really dont see why I should even fucking care about this shit anymore. I guess I wont. But all I gotta say is that my life is fucked and this is going to be the last probably anyone will hear from me. So yeah. Tata

[	Current Mood	|	~*~896~*~ bitch	]
[	Current Music	|	The sound of my tears hitting the floor	]

      Why hello everyone agian I am not doing much right now except sit here on my lazy ass and talk to Jessica on the phone because im a loser. So deal with it.

         Well not that much exciting happened to me today. So I really dont have that much to be writing about. I left Jessica's this afternoon around like 3 something. I really dont remember. All I remember is that I woke up and my neck and my back were bugging the shit outta me cause I slept on wood.

         Well I came home cleaned up a little and then I went to my meetings and then I came home and as soon as I walked in the door Jessica called me so I talked to her for a little while. Then after that my mom my brother and I did some running around. We went over to see the racist bitch ass mother fucker (my grandmothe) before she left tomarrow cause I didnt go and see her while she was up here so I had to go and see her today no matter what.

         As soon as we walked in the door she started to judge me. It just really aggitates me when she starts to judge me before she even asked me how im doing or anything. I just hate the way she treats me. I mean yes she is my grandmother but I just cant stand her. After what happened between me and her I just dont really want to bother with her anymore. I just dont like her anymore. As soon as I sat down I took off my shoes and then right after I took my shoes off she started to ask me why I dress like a guy and why im always wearing guy clothes and shit like that. I didnt even bother answering her. So I just walked in the bathroom took a pee and I just got a cross word thingy and I just sat in the kitchen and did some of those thingys. Right before we left I asked my mom for the newspaper so I could look at some of the sales papers. I was sittin down and I was looking through the paper and I found a stearo that was really nice. I wanted it really bad so I told my mom and it's on sale for only like 77 dollers so yeah its a really nice price and a really nice stearo. I sat down and I started to tell my mom what the features are to it and my grandmother inturuped me and started to say "Shannon why are you such a guy. I really dont understand why you are more of a guy then your brother. Its really kind of disturbing." I didnt even answer her I just took the keys to car and I walked out and I sat in the car for like 10 mins by myself just listen to music.Then after all that time my mom and my brother came walking out. We went home and yeah.

         So right now I am just sitting thinking my life through I really dont know what else there is to be said as I said in my last entrie cause I just have alot of stuff on my mind. I just want to write one little short paragrah about people in my life that I want to stay in my life and what I really think about them and I dont really care if they read this or not and then get horribly upset with me cause I just need to get everything out.

           Jessica-I fucking love you to death. I just have so much to say about you. You and I have been through soo many fights and stuff between each other and between other people and you know no matter what happens to us I will always love you and care for you for al ong time. I just love you to death and I hope you dont do anything stupied over any guy. Theres really no guy out there that will ever make you do anything dumb and if you think about do something dummyish then call me and talk to me dont matter what time it is. I Love you.

              Megan-Oh lord what is there to be said. Your damn amazing I lvoe you to death also. All the good times you and I have had. Theres to mcuh to type down and yeah. I jsut want you know that i love you and im here for you and im hoping you think that same. I'll let you go tho. tata love ya

               Joe-God where to start. I dont even think you will be reading this but I hope you are. I just dont know. I still care for you alot. I really dont care if you care about me or anything. I just wanted you to know that you were my life when you and I were together. I guess I can still say that your still part of my life and still a tiny part of my heart. I just wish that you and I can work out any of the problems from the past or any problems at all. I just cant stand seeing well actually hearing you say that your upset and your in a bad mood and all of that it really upsets me. I just dont know what else I can say except that I still care for you alot and I still kinda love you. I dont care if you hate me for saying that but its true. I have to tell you what I think. And I think right now that you are going through a rough time right now in your life. It's just like the last time you were going through this but its kinda worse cause you cant go back to your moms. Well im not sure about that but im just guessing. I just hope that you can get through this. If you do need someone to come to im always here for you and i'll try and help you out with anything. I'll let you go. Tata love you still and still caring.

              Carmen-Oh boy what to be said about you. We have known it each for ever. Theres just soooo many memories and everything between us. It's always been fun to be with you. I always had a blast hanging out with you. Remember that one day when it was just you and me hanging out and I said "Carmen I can feel something" and of course you said "I know hehe" and your put on your little innocent face. That was a great day. Lol. You and I must hang out more or I will yell at your. No I wont. I would cry. Lol. But anyways. I just wanted you to know that I care for you and Im always here to listen to what ever you have to say. I love you to death. Tata

              Amanda-God your AcD and you can do what ever the fuck you want haha. Lol. I love you to death your the bestestest if that makes sence. But it should make sence to you and me cause were losers. Lol. And dont say your not cause you know you are. But god so little memories with you but they are all the best memories. I cant thank you enough for being there for me. I will always be here for you no matter what. I love you to death AcD. I'll let you get on with your life now tata love ya.

                  Lakely-Wow So little memories with you but along with AcD they were all great memories. I hope we can get some more and remember them and tell them to our children HA! Shit with our luck we will still be making memories happen when our children are alive haha! And you know its true. Lol. Anyways. I just wanted you to know that I love you to death and im always here for you and I hope you feel the same. Tata love ya Lmm1

               God this is one damn long entrie so yeah. I dont know what else to write so yeah. If I forgot to put you in here then im sorry and just leave a comment and ill add you. But I gotta get to getting I got school tomarrow tata love you all exspeically that one certain guy.

[	Current Mood	|	arg	]
[	Current Music	|	the sound of my tears hitting the floor	]

Well it looks like im in a better mood then usuall. I dont know why but I am. I'm trying to type all neat cause i cant even see what im typing haha. But yeah. I am really happy that I am going to tinkham.I get along with just about everyone. The people I dont get along with well they can just suck my cock. Lol. Well yeah I just wanted to write in and tell you all that I am crushing really horribly bad and I hate it cause I got 2 people there that i like badly and well yeah it sucks. I dont know who I should choose so yeah.. Only very few peole know who Im talking about... so yeah.. it sucks really bad... I cant go to skool without thinking about who i should choose or who I should hit on... so yeah for now i am just keeping to myself about them in skool and yeah..... i dont know I think i might choose the one that i talk to more and then one that i see more and have more im common with.... I think only one person or so knows who that is... and well yeah i dont gotta worry about them telling anyone cause they dont even go to skool to begin with ... god i hate this thing I cant see a damn word that i am typing and its making me mad. So if I have any mis-spelled words then im sorry... it isnt my fault. Its this things fault cause it gave me a black background and black writing and yes i know i can change the color of the writing but i need it black... so yeah.. i dont know.. but i guess this is a long enough entrie for now.. i just wnated to write and inform you all that i like someone new and well yeah i still love  joe and i dont care if he reads this.. cause i still do. I dont care.. so yeah.. i guess i am borning you all to hell so ill let you all go. tata love you all

ACD-We must hangout like soon or i will stalk you do and kill you and rape your dead body.. ok maybe non of that but i will be very upset with you... lol i love you acd call me as soon as you read this........

Lmm1- Yes you are right lakely we all must hang out like soon.. i will get back to you both on when i can han gout cause i am a very busy person pimpin all the ladies and the felles you know... lol hahahaha.. but yeah i know what your saying we all much hang out soon.. i will write down your number and call you and then 3 way acd and then we can all figure out when we can han gout... lol .. but yeah i love you lmm1 ill talk to you later

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